It's funny how one little thought can become sooooo powerful! I've been sick with a cold since June (well technically it's over now), but I had it for like a month! And then I got an ear infection from the cold most likely and all the swimming I've been doing...but then also I felt like my throat was getting clogged and I kept having to clear it. So Sunday night, a small lil' thought quickly grew into this big ball of fear! I thought what if I got sick like I did a few years ago and it came back??? I hadn't felt that way in a long time. It's not that I can't deal with having to go thru all that again, but I was just worried that my happiness I worked so hard at achieving these past few years would be lost again. The last time that happened to me was about 3 years ago and then I got the terrible news and life changed...
So I thought..could all this be tumbling down again just as I reached my happiness? I've never been happier! I'm experiencing all that life has to offer again and really appreciating everything around me! I'm taking risks again and doing everything I've dreamed of and saying Yes to all kinds of fun experiences and opportunities! I've been feeling so carefree and just appreciating all the little and big things life has to offer! But even still...I feel like there are sooooo many more things I wanna do and see! Sometimes I feel like time is of the essence...there's just not enough time to experience everything and that worries me - especially when it can be taken away in an instant. I started to cry all night and praying that this wasn't deja vu...
Next morning, I called my doctor to see what she thought and she said I had nothing to worry about..it was just leftover symptoms from my cold. I went to the doctor here in nyc who treated me for my ear infection and also for the minor whiplash I got from the cab accident a few days prior..he said I was ok too!
As I left the doctor's office, I ran into these 2 adorable lil' yorkshire puppies dressed up to the nines, as well as their owner!!! They were sooo cute and one of them Jezzabelle wouldn't leave my side, so I walked her back to her owner who was a few feet away. We got talking and became fast friends! She offered me a ride back to the Upper West Side, as we were in the nice area of the Upper East Side. She started to talk to me about faith and about positive thinking and how we must quickly get rid of negative thoughts! I thought this was so coincidental or a sign of God answering my prayer in the form of an angel or I guess as I like to refer to her as my Fairy Godmother of the Upper East Side! She was so cute..she even wanted to adopt me!
This experience just reminded me of the power of faith and prayer and that God really does answer them! Meeting that lady definitely made my day and lifted my spirits! But even more so, when I called my dad and talked to him..he gave me quite a surprise! After all these years of nagging, my dad finally decided to change for himself to eat better and exercise! I asked him what finally got to him and he said he wanted to see my sister and I get married and have kids and all that jazz. I was soooo happy to hear that! We told him all of this many a times..but I dunno what finally got to him, doesn't matter though! I'm just glad he finally realized it. I'm so proud of him and I hope he keeps it up!
I am very lucky to have such wonderful parents. They really are the best! They are so supportive, loving and selfless beings! I hope one day I can pay them back for all the sacrifices they made for us. I see them get disrespected and hurt by family and friends and just all the hardships they go through and they don't get any recognition...just abused and it makes me furious!!! I know my sister and I would give anything to just make them proud and I wish I could give them the world...hopefully one day!!! And I hope that one day is very soon!
Love you mom and dad...you both mean the world to me!!! oxoxox
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